What if Spirit offered you guidance but you weren’t in a place to accept it? What if you fought and railed and shook your fist in anger instead because for the life of you, you couldn’t see how the situation you were in could possibly be moving toward any ‘greater good’? Suddenly you find yourself frustrated beyond belief; perhaps a little agony and lots of confusion tossed in for good measure… Maybe your are just feeling numb.
Some suggest we are here on this earth journey exactly for that purpose! To ‘feel’ deeply, and to allow ourselves to puzzle through and find the light on the other side of any challenge that comes into our life. But what of those moments?
What is Spirit’s reaction to our stumbling in the face of grace?
Here is a conversation I had with Spirit in this regard a few years ago. My hope is that you will find comfort in knowing that Spirit holds free will in such high regard.
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Without Trust There Is No Guidance, Only Suspicion
Inconvenient though it may be
I bring you news
That all may not be as it seems
This is the truth of it
If you wish
I can share it with you.
Yes, please, Spirit. My heart aches to know.
When you come to work in this plane
Because it is work
It isn’t easy
When you come to work on this plane
There are certain milestones to pass
That lead you one way or the other
Each opportunity that arises
Gives rise to another
And another
One possibility leading to another
And on
In all directions
When one starts out
One never knows where one might end up
Because
We have choices
There is no
The ‘right’ choice
And the ‘wrong’ choice
There is only
‘The’ choice we make in any one moment
And then, of course,
There is
Where that choice leads us
I can’t tell you what will happen next
It isn’t up to me
In which case,
Isn’t it wise that you are one
Who makes a point of considering deeply
All the possible outcomes before you take a step?
I want you to consider this:
Let me lead you in the way I see best
In this matter of your heart….
What might you mean by this, Spirit?
Trust me
Can you do that?
Ah Spirit. You ask a great deal of me
I ask you for consideration only
The choice is, of course, completely up to you
What is the difference then, Spirit? If I can’t open my heart to trust you, then I lose the guidance I seek. Where is the choice in this?
Without trust there is no guidance
Only suspicion
Then, I am willing to listen, Spirit. What do you wish to suggest?
Open your heart
Let love rein
Trust the emptiness you feel is only temporary
Open to the possibility
Of life beyond this death
POSH!
It’s all a Universal trick!
I was promised, for years, and now I am abandoned
Forsaken
Thrown away
Without so much as a moments grace
You are beyond cruel, Spirit. In your nonsense about living One’s Truth.
I can live and pray for my deepest desire but nothing comes of it, and so
You abandon me to emptiness
How can I trust again after this?
What a disgusting sense of humour this
I don’t speak in anger in this moment. I speak my mind. There has to be a place for me to use my voice – where someone will listen?
Am I worth nothing?
And now I am in no place to listen
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It’s a matter of letting go of fear, would you say? I fought tooth and nail before I was in a place to consider doing so for my own dear self. Letting go of fear is not always easy by any means, but what glory comes with trusting that there is nothing but love for you, if you will only find a way to let it in! “Let love in!” This is what Spirit whispers to us without end. What a glorious day it will be for all, when we choose love!
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