Couldn’t we be
The ones to share today?
Along the way
You’ll find yourself
Traveling in pairs
For one adventure or another
Two minds as one
For considering wisdom
From more than one angle
Within yourself
You will see wisdom as having valid points
Good sense
From possible opposing views
Wherein lies the truth for you?
We can begin to doubt our sanity
At times
If the…
Yes, Spirit?
What if valid reasoning begins to pile up
On both sides?
What if you begin to appreciate
Both points of view?
What then?
You must remember the duality within
With respect for both
And acknowledge your inner truths
Yes –
More than one truth within yourself
There can be many minds
Each with valid notions
Of how we might conduct ourselves
Don’t create shadow
Out of one view over another
Within yourself
Honour both
Love both
(If you are considering two)
Or ten if there are ten
When you acknowledge all angles of inner knowing
You are on the road
To creating peace within
It is in punishing thoughts toward self
Where inner turmoil erupts
Let’s take an example
Let’s say
You want to go out for a walk
A simple desire, Yes?
But maybe not for all of your ‘self’
Perhaps there is a part of you
That feels nervous about this idea
For whatever reason
One aspect of who you are
Decides going out for a walk
Is a sickening idea
And to emphasize the point
You have a knot in our stomach
Now that piece of yourself
That looks out on a sunny day, says,
“Ah! But it is so appealing!
Fresh air
Sunlight
Warmth
The smell of new soil
Or trees or the sea
How beautiful this would be!”
And while that part of you is smiling
And day dreaming
Of such a delightful possibility
The anti-walking part within
Takes a next step to emphasize the point
Raising the bar of dis-ease
From knot in the stomach
To tightness in the chest
It’s as though giant fists
Have taken hold of your heart
And are squeezing
So that breathing becomes a challenge
And because the ‘out for the walk’ part of you
Doesn’t fully comprehend
Why you are feeling this tightness
But has empathy
For the nervous part of you
You find you begin to actively look from side to side
For the catalyst of discomfort
There must be something external
In your environment,
You think,
To have caused this feeling of unease.
As you look close at hand for the trigger
The inner you who worries
Begins to celebrate!
For as long as you are busy looking for ‘why’
In the physical
You are no longer dreaming
Of going outside walking
IN THE UNKNOWN!!
Instead of easing up
That part of you
Who is desperately shouting,
“Stay home!”
Winds up full force
In order to keep your attention
Soon enough,
This looking side to side
Intensifies to such a degree
That the throat seizes up
As though those hands now squeeze your voice
Into silence
Your eyes bulge out in panic
Your mind races frantically
Darting in all directions
Crashing into the edges of your skull
Hammering to get out in a primal scream
Yet, locked
Within the cage of your mind
“Don’t leave the house!”
It wants to say
But can’t
The thought so terrifying
You collapse
Literally
On the floor
Unable to move
Even had you wanted to
The joyful dream state shattered
Confusion isn’t possible
As this suggests the ability to reason
And reason,
You are completely incapable of
Once again…
Once again the fear within reigns
But it’s not what you wanted…
Not what you’d hoped for
On this glorious sunny day…
Instead,
You turn away from daydreams
And do the laundry.
You sweep the floor
Make a sandwich
Turn your back to the day
And try to forget the knot in your stomach
That still remains
It always remains
A physical manifestation
Of Dread
Ready to leak into the whole of you
In any given moment
Without end
What of the duality?
What is the solution?
Are we doomed to live this way forever?
Yes, Spirit?
What is needed here? So many wish to know. How do we overcome such darkness?
The answer is love
The answer is love and understanding
The one who must listen
Is you,
For you
We can all get guidance
From an external source
But ultimately
The onus of love falls on you
For you
This is the duality I spoke of
We all have it
We all have an inner voice
More than one
One voice cannot dominate another
Within ourselves
To the point of disharmony
With another part of ourselves
Without consequence
A state of peace
Can only be created
When you allow this to be your truth
You have the ability to find inner peace
By seeking out those thoughts
That create disharmony
And listen within
To all it has to say
Listen
Like you are your own best friend
Emphasize
With healthy boundaries within
Hold fast to the highest good
Of your own dear self
No one aspect
Need have dominance over another
Harmony comes
When all views are respected
Can you see this idea
As a possible break through for you?
When one aspect is fearful
If the other jumps on board
And takes on the belief
That there must be something to fear
You will create twice the fear!
Now you really feel it
And what intensity you create
By joining in!
This is not self-love. . .
This is pouring fuel on the fire
We do this unwittingly
Don’t judge
Don’t criticize past doings
Simply choose a new approach
One aspect fears
Another aspect acknowledges
“You are fearful today.”
Fear grips the stomach…
Acknowledge that feeling
“Your stomach is tight today.
It tells me you are uncomfortable
I hear you…
I witness your discomfort
I understand your gesture
I no longer need to feel it, too.
I hear you…
Now let go of that feeling in me
Let’s talk together about it.
I am here…”
You will find this awareness needs practice
The signs are always there
But we are not practiced at seeing
That’s okay
Don’t criticize your truth
Simply start today
Choose to become aware
Little by little
Prick up your internal ears
To the signs your psyche offers
They will differ
From person to person
From situation to situation
What signs do you offer to self?
Allow your truth to reign
And when you listen
You will find
Panic begins to subside…
Love would not say:
“You fear a walk?
How stupid is that?
I’m going anyway!”
Love would say:
‘You fear a walk?
I understand….
Something about walking out worries you.
I understand how that might feel
Let’s sit together a while
I am here…
You’re not alone…
I am here…
Let’s consider what we both hope for
And hold hands and
Listen to each other with love”
Duality is within us all
Embracing it brings harmony
One wants to enjoy warmth
Enjoy the brightness of the sun
Breathe fresh air
Feel or smell the earth
The other wants safety
The beauty of being cared for
The comfort of acknowledgment
Of trust
Of caring
Can you not have both?
Love would never say
“I’m going anyway!”
Love would say,
“Lets find a way
To acknowledge each other.”
Today – Could we step into the yard? No?
Today could we open the window? No?
Today could we stand together
And hold hands with love?
Could we look out and enjoy the look of the sun outside from the safety of the house?
Could we imagine the warmth of the sun and share the memory of how that feels?
Could we care for our indoor plants and breathe in the smell of that sweet earth?
Could we agree that one day soon,
We will simply open the front door?
And feel the summer air
With no expectation
Of stepping over the threshold?
Just open the door
Nothing more?
Another day
Not today…
Today we will acknowledge
The love we have within self
For Self
We are love to each other
We can learn to walk together in peace
Step by tiny step
For as long as it takes
Without judgment
Amen to your courageous heart!
Be love
And you will know what love is
~
© Copyright 2017 All Rights Reserved Catherine ~ On Spirits’ Wings
Thankyou!
I needed this …
I’m so glad Spirits words found you, Angela.
Warmth and love and light to you,
Catherine
Well said. Sounded like you were talking about me for many parts!! Thanks!!!
You and me both!
Love to you,
Catherine